A Girl Who Act Like Stupid But She's A Real Bitch

Day after day, know her true color, and yet she tried so hard to hide her real self.

She love written things on a piece of paper, express herself and sometimes wrote about her daily life, and later she will copy in her Diary I guess.

I saw few things written like about things that she's not happy with at work and things that she don't like. But from her feature you can't see the bitchy side of her. After almost a year, now I can see the bitchy side of her, and her own best friend told me about the real her. I'm sad yet disappointed, she's a hypocrite person I ever met, what I meant was, she look so nice, decent and that innocent looked made me think that she's such an firgile girl that must protect and care of.

I'm a straight foward person so I hate hypocrites who love acting around.

So for now I just wait for her to leave the company soon. I just can't look at her even a glance!

Friendship End By Ego And Emo!

After 12yrs of friendship, she changed. She's negative, the way she think, the way she talks the way she handle stress. We tried to help, in many ways to make her feel better and think positively. But when you yourself think negative, everything will be negative. When your mind been filled by those negative things, even your friends advise you take it negatively. It's sad and yet disappointed, but what can we say? She made her own dicision to end our friendship. She made the dicision to end the friendship with Ego and Emo. She will regret it one day, as for now I have nothing to regret, because I never depend on friends in life. So I learn the only best friend in your life is your partner (Husband/Wife) friends they will leave you when they think you no longer benefit to them. So life goes on. I know one day she will text us and say sorry, after she realize that what she did was wrong, Shelfish, Ego and Emotional.

~Love At First Sight~

Do you believe in Love at first sight?

I do...

The first moment I look at him I felt that 'LOVE' through my heart!

I never believe in Love at the first sight, because never happen to me in my entire Love life.

Usually it took me a few days or sometimes weeks or even months for me to fall for someone.

But this guy who stole my heart by the first sight made me realized how grateful and wonderful Love is.

I just prays to Allah that he will be the one, the right one. "Insyaallah" Amin...

So I guess here I am, gonna start my new chapter of life "The Love Story" after so long, I found my Love.

=)

I Love You. 16/05/12

Hmmm.....

Hmmm....

Love life is not as easy as the youngsters thot.
Couple couple look cool ya..!
But real relationship its not easy to manage
or should we say maintain..
Thinking of whats next?
What he/she wants.
Not just about yourself
not only about both of you..
Its about every thing..
It can get bored
if you don't care to care about it..
Its not that easy..
Patience is all you need..

Syawal is sad every year..

~20th sept 09 Sunday~
1st Syawal is always
the sad day for me..
As i expected
it gonna be the same!
Can i just let it out every thing in my heart now?
I mean write every thing here..

K.. As usual woke up early once i heard Takbir on the radio..
Get ready all the baju and every thing..
Im the cheerful one normaly,
even thou deep in my heart im really sad..
Im the elders sister so im always the one to help
the younger ones..
Make up for them, just to make them happy..
So Im always the last to shower n etc..
I know i cant make it in time,
coz they wanted me to wear Tudung..
It takes extra time for me to dry up my hair n etc..
So as usual i didn't get the chance to salam my mum and bro,
*thats e sad part*
i know im not gonna get that chance anymore,
maybe when im married then i can get that chance..
*Insya'allah*
So they finish all the salam2,
and "He" went out the house and ask everybody to leave the house..
*He knows im not ready yet, still putting on make up"
My mum refused, even all my siblings ignored him..
They waited for me to be done..
"He" get a bit angry coz my family side me n not "Him"
So the whole day he was with "His" long face..
*Aku bersyukur sangat2 pa Allah, kerana telah
merapatkan hubungan ku dengan Mak, Abang and Adik2 ku.*
"He's" jealous of me!!!!
What the "F"
just coz my family are really supporting me..
I think he is to much this time!!
Im trying my very best to make things better,
but he always try his best to put an negative things in any situation..
*WHY??*
My mum really sad with "His" attitude..
She almost cry when we talk just now,
she was saying that "He's" so EGO!!
My mum sees every thing in this house,
i didn't do anything wrong for the past 5-6 years..
Im being a good girl..
I help "Him" to support my three younger sis
and my younger brother..
Why cant "He" sees that?? Im helping "Him"
Why can't "He" appreciate a bit..
I just HATE "Him" more and more..

~The picture~
I love my siblings so much!
I dont know when Im gonna be out from that yearly
sibling picture (@ Bus Stop)
I think nobody can separate us,
not even our "Dad"!!

Had Fun...

Meet up with my girls...
Been like few week we didn't chill out..
We went to bazaar geylang,
walk around n buy FOOD!!
yeah2 food is all around...
We went to Kent Ridge park to EAT..!!
Was really fun..
Went to Yishun dam,
play poker, with who else!
my poker partner - Ckin -
Now got new kaki,
Mais (Ckin BF) & sheik (Fizah BF)
Was really fun..

~Erase Him!~

It's been few months after every thing ended..
I guess i overcome every thing now..
But yet still there's something in my mind n kept asking myself,
kept thinking in my mind..
Why it ended like that!!?? Why???
Why cant he appreciate me,
someone who been with him for almost 8yrs!!
gone thru shit n hell!!
Why he ended it, with no reason..
My heart is crying but of coz my face is smiling..
But im happy now of coz...
I guess i have to erase him from my heart,
and forget all the past..
Just focus on my new life..
*Smile*