Hmmm.....

Hmmm....

Love life is not as easy as the youngsters thot.
Couple couple look cool ya..!
But real relationship its not easy to manage
or should we say maintain..
Thinking of whats next?
What he/she wants.
Not just about yourself
not only about both of you..
Its about every thing..
It can get bored
if you don't care to care about it..
Its not that easy..
Patience is all you need..

Syawal is sad every year..

~20th sept 09 Sunday~
1st Syawal is always
the sad day for me..
As i expected
it gonna be the same!
Can i just let it out every thing in my heart now?
I mean write every thing here..

K.. As usual woke up early once i heard Takbir on the radio..
Get ready all the baju and every thing..
Im the cheerful one normaly,
even thou deep in my heart im really sad..
Im the elders sister so im always the one to help
the younger ones..
Make up for them, just to make them happy..
So Im always the last to shower n etc..
I know i cant make it in time,
coz they wanted me to wear Tudung..
It takes extra time for me to dry up my hair n etc..
So as usual i didn't get the chance to salam my mum and bro,
*thats e sad part*
i know im not gonna get that chance anymore,
maybe when im married then i can get that chance..
*Insya'allah*
So they finish all the salam2,
and "He" went out the house and ask everybody to leave the house..
*He knows im not ready yet, still putting on make up"
My mum refused, even all my siblings ignored him..
They waited for me to be done..
"He" get a bit angry coz my family side me n not "Him"
So the whole day he was with "His" long face..
*Aku bersyukur sangat2 pa Allah, kerana telah
merapatkan hubungan ku dengan Mak, Abang and Adik2 ku.*
"He's" jealous of me!!!!
What the "F"
just coz my family are really supporting me..
I think he is to much this time!!
Im trying my very best to make things better,
but he always try his best to put an negative things in any situation..
*WHY??*
My mum really sad with "His" attitude..
She almost cry when we talk just now,
she was saying that "He's" so EGO!!
My mum sees every thing in this house,
i didn't do anything wrong for the past 5-6 years..
Im being a good girl..
I help "Him" to support my three younger sis
and my younger brother..
Why cant "He" sees that?? Im helping "Him"
Why can't "He" appreciate a bit..
I just HATE "Him" more and more..

~The picture~
I love my siblings so much!
I dont know when Im gonna be out from that yearly
sibling picture (@ Bus Stop)
I think nobody can separate us,
not even our "Dad"!!

Had Fun...

Meet up with my girls...
Been like few week we didn't chill out..
We went to bazaar geylang,
walk around n buy FOOD!!
yeah2 food is all around...
We went to Kent Ridge park to EAT..!!
Was really fun..
Went to Yishun dam,
play poker, with who else!
my poker partner - Ckin -
Now got new kaki,
Mais (Ckin BF) & sheik (Fizah BF)
Was really fun..

~Erase Him!~

It's been few months after every thing ended..
I guess i overcome every thing now..
But yet still there's something in my mind n kept asking myself,
kept thinking in my mind..
Why it ended like that!!?? Why???
Why cant he appreciate me,
someone who been with him for almost 8yrs!!
gone thru shit n hell!!
Why he ended it, with no reason..
My heart is crying but of coz my face is smiling..
But im happy now of coz...
I guess i have to erase him from my heart,
and forget all the past..
Just focus on my new life..
*Smile*

Its the 19th days of fasting..
At work... As usual, BORED is the word..
Feels like going home now..
As in now right now..
haiz.... Where's the fun time??
where's the fun colleagues??
All gone to other outlets ya....
Time goes so damn slow!
but only at work..
When u r at home its like damn fast la!
especially when u r out with ur love ones,
its like not enough for the day...